My heart is ripped off of whats happening now in the Philippines. So many lost their loved ones because of nature’s wrath. The Filipinos did not expect that a Super Typhoon causing the storm surge could damage their homes and lose their loved ones. It crushed my heart. It made my tears rolling like water falls. We did not expect the worst. So saddening to see people crying helplessly as they see the dead bodies lying around the city. It suddenly struck me. I havent gotten enough sleep for a couple of days now. Thinking of thousands of lives that were taken. They did not ask for this. Who would? Who would ever want to see their loved ones dying. Who would ever want to lose somebody close to their hearts whom they have shared their whole lives with? It panged me so deep. It pained me. This is about life that were taken in a very wrathful way. And the people did not deserve it. intentions were not heed. The situation made this as a wake up call for me. And this has been the burden i have been carrying for a long period of time. I may sometimes forget it because of the sparkle that is attracting me to forget about it in a short time. But this?? Do I even deserve to live as well? 😔😔😔
I am still overwhelmed of what has been going on after I was left with unAnswered questions.
I may appear ok and getting by through it. Oh yes, I am working so hard to get through all the pain and forgetting that instant of falling and not being able to stand up, almost.
In random cases, i would suddenly remember the pain. And then shut my eyes, and then realize, i am again crying. Not because I still wanted the person who thought who could fought for me, but the feeling of betrayed and disrespected is still eminent with in me, with in each blood vains.
What I am thankful about is that I have leaped from the worst situation I had been.
I am back from scratch. Trying to fix everything. Trying, because I really do not know where to start.
I am starting to leave everything behind. Starting not to turn my back and not to fight what I thought was right.
I am more pleased if we could leave everything this way. Until such time i would forget that I had been through this.
No more lies, No more dark secrets to keep, No more denials, No more worries.. These are what I am thankful so much of Leaping to the new chapter I have opened.
Now I am ready to explore more of what I am capable of.. Be bigger than what I was..❤️👍😊
gosh! overwhelming! LOL. i wish i cud. but im uber busy with training these days. anong alam ko sa mga ganito? have not even joined to anything like this! di ako qualified! hahaha :p